Andy

Tue, 04 Mar 2008 03:41:32 GMT

i wish i had more control over my emotions. i think im pretty good at appearing normal even when im feeling shitty. i usually just use the excuse that im tired from working so much, but most times i just find myself dwelling on a million little negative things. i really dont have much to be unhappy about lately, but i manage to bum myself out over nothing. i need a vacation really bad, i need to get away from thinking about life and stuff. it was so unbelievably nice outside today, i rode my bike down to mojos after work to meet jesse, erin, and beth. tomorrow night, a bunch of people from work are all supposed to hang out at james and jessica's house. i feel like i never see a lot of the people from work that i used to hang out with, so that should be fun. its going to get up to 74 degrees tomorrow, too bad theyre calling for thunderstorms in the evening.

Mon, 31 Dec 2007 23:00:36 GMT

new years date!!

Mon, 24 Dec 2007 04:52:51 GMT

do i dare get my hopes up?

edit: should've known it was too good

Fri, 07 Dec 2007 16:00:38 GMT

dont have to work til 3 today
bored and dont know what to do all day

p.s. i was just listening to the police, and i put on the copy of reggatta de blanc i bought while i was in new york for my grandfathers funeral and i found this picture my mom gave me of me as a baby and my grandpa holding me. man, i miss him

Mon, 19 Nov 2007 18:03:25 GMT

so the other day i was thinking about calling my grandfather to tell him about my new promotion cause i knew he would be really proud of me. and then i started thinking about how it was probably snowing in new york by now and how he was probably hating it. then i remembered the last time i was in new york was february and it was snowing but i was up there for his funeral. its like for 9 months i just forget that he had died and now it seems like it just happened. the christmas season is not a very happy time of year for me.

Wed, 14 Nov 2007 06:26:34 GMT

if you could cheer me up
i could learn to love you

Sat, 20 Oct 2007 07:30:32 GMT

i am so fucking angry right now

Sun, 14 Oct 2007 05:44:18 GMT

ive never had a dream in my life
cause a dream is what you wanna do
but still havent pursued
i knew what i wanted
and did it til it was done
so ive been the dream
that i wanted to be
since day one

Sat, 06 Oct 2007 07:07:40 GMT

shot down again

Sun, 30 Sep 2007 06:25:31 GMT

so nothing has really made me happy or sad in the past month or so. things piss me off a lot, but thats nothing new. i think maybe ive just become numb to life.

Sat, 08 Sep 2007 13:27:49 GMT

i love hanging out at the lake. drinking beer, fishing, waking up early, and just chillin in general. ive been able to sleep pretty well lately.

Tue, 04 Sep 2007 06:29:54 GMT

what a crazy week its been
prospects for new york are looking up
sam v is moving back into my apartment

Fri, 31 Aug 2007 08:34:03 GMT

i think i almost lost my mind tonight. i gotta get a fucking grip on things or i am seriously gonna lose it. i keep thinking that moving out of virginia is the solution, but honestly, problems like these cant just be left behing in another state. something has got to fucking give.

Tue, 28 Aug 2007 05:52:17 GMT

who the fuck am i kidding?
apparently myself recently.

Sun, 26 Aug 2007 06:39:55 GMT

old flames have a way of making me feel funny

Mon, 13 Aug 2007 06:52:10 GMT

holy fucking shit
my brain is going to explode if i have to try and sort one more thing out in my life. im so confused about shit right now. i need to get the fuck out of here

Fri, 10 Aug 2007 06:43:48 GMT

cooking with friends is fun

heirloom tomato salad
dandelion greens, olives, shaved asiago

roasted red pepper bisque
smoked mozarella

roast scallops
toasted corn, chorizo, crimini mushrooms, beurre blanc

walnut crusted chocolate pate
caramelized peaches

Wed, 08 Aug 2007 07:25:21 GMT

work work work
drama drama drama
beer beer beer

Mon, 06 Aug 2007 02:52:57 GMT

i am overwhelmed with loneliness
will someone go on a date with me?

Dead Prez - Hell Yeah

Mon, 25 Dec 2006 18:37:50 GMT

Joe Strummer and The Mescaleros - Redemption Song

Mon, 25 Dec 2006 17:57:51 GMT

yeah christmas

Mon, 25 Dec 2006 02:59:56 GMT

sitting in deep creek waiting to be able to go back home. its not that i dont love my family, but i just hate being here. ive been melancholy as fuck the last two days. theres just so many things that i cant get out of my mind. i hate things about my life now and miss things about my life from the past. but on the other hand, i hate so many things from the past and enjoy so much about my life now. i thought that after nearly 2 months i could accept that i was now without that one person i need, but it doesnt seem to be getting any easier. im just better at ignoring it. well if anyone reads this tonight or tomorrow and wants to hang out before i go back to richmond, gimme a call.

Tue, 18 Apr 2006 16:29:17 GMT

livejournal update time.
not much to write about.
birthday festivities were sweet.
im sick and i have allergies.
beth's roommates alarm has been
going off for like an hour but i
dont know if i should go turn it off.
cici's pizza makes me feel sad.

p.s. livejournal has changed a lot

Tue, 24 Jan 2006 18:31:24 GMT

new tattoo post

ill post again in a few months

Fri, 02 Dec 2005 05:53:49 GMT

life has been pretty unacceptable lately. broken bike equals borrowing money from beth that i cant afford to repay. work sucks. the weather has been miserable. my feet hurt all the time and i cant afford new shoes. but theres some high points such as beth, roommates, fixed bike and christmas